Saturday, June 5
I'M GONNA SPAM EVERYTHING I WANNA SAY HERE.
i'm not sure if you would even bother and come and read this, but i just wanna say this.
i know i might have treated you badly back then, but i swear it wasn't intentional.
but now what you've been doing, it's obvious to me that you did it consciously.
idk, i dunt wanna probe anymore.
no point. i took the initiative to talk it out with you, bec i cared, every single time.
but what was the attitude i got back?
"okay idc." sighhh.
i dunt even know WHAT am i to you, bec i'm darn sure you dunt even treat me as a "WHO".
you can spend the whole time talking to every single one, even when i already tried and done my best talking to you.
you can show that you dunt bother at all.
sighh. every single time i thrash things out with you, i made an effort to change.
you dunt see it, bec why? you dunt even care.
sighh. yes, i really shouldnt waste my time and effort getting upset over you, trying to change, talking things out and whatsoever on you, when you dunt even care.
i should spend my time more on those who cared for me.
sighh. idk, you might still think it's my fault, ya i dunt deny.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
but i swear across my heart that i've tried my best, i've tried to change, i've tried to talk to you more, i've tried to care for you more, i've really treated you as my good friend.
but you will never see it. you've got so much more "good friends" and solid friendship to manage.
mine is just so insignificant.
idc anymore, i'm too tired.
:(
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