Saturday, October 25
didnt i told them before tt we aint fated?
why did they have to see it as a typical love story?
didnt i told them before tt maybe she's right, he's got himself another one's care, & i wasnt needed?
why did they have to be so optimistic & so persuading tt i'm not to concede defeat?
if i were a lil more persistence of what i thought last time, probably it wouldnt hurt so much today.
it's the 2nd time? even if it's not worth for tt lil tears, it's inevitable.
if i said tt i'm okayy, i'm lying.
i'm just indulging myself in a world of distractions, of not to hover too much over this.
i'm laughing & smiling still, to the crowds, just to prove tt i could live for myself.
but i'm still someone with emotions, someone who cries so easily, someone who needs a shoulder there to cry on tightly.
maybe if its just once, it'll really help.
CRUSH, you're th additional pain to my past.
yet i couldnt do anything to salvage now anymore, i cant get closer to you anymore.
i'm just hoping tt time would bring my sorrows & pain to a much further place.
i'm looking on the bright side of life, thinking tt someone better would appear, but deep inside, idk if i'm really doing so.
or am i just finding another way to avoid?
i fell so hard, not just a fall, which i just sit & cry, & needing those loving words to be said again.
it's a very strong one.
told you, she's right, i could never be tt princess for my prince charming.
& never has his care, & love.
crying out loud makes you feel better, yes, i agree.
but despite hugging the teddy so hard & wetting it, it's worst.
bec, i know, when the daybreak arrives, it's another day i've gotta put on my mask again.
i'm sorry, but i'm not tt strong gal you gals thinks i am.
i'm just, putting on a very brave front, like as though nothing has happened.
& i shall never make my weakest soul, at night, to reveal in front of you.
why do i keep running from the truth, when all i ever think abt is you?
you've got me hypnothized, so mesmerized.
& i never felt, the feeling tt i'm feeling now tt i dunt hear your voice, cause i dunt have a choice.
i'm now, feeling all outta my element, crying, trying to figure where the hell i went wrong.
but, has it every cross your mind, of where this thing can go, or what we could be someday?
boy, since you've got your happiness, i wish the best of you, & hopes tt she could treat you better than i can.
best wishes, to my crush.
goodbye.
Labels: P/S a breakdown.
