hey, not gonna blog much, just gonna blog abt emotions.
i've got only 1 thing to say,
LIFE'S SAD.
nothing i could do to turn anything back, nor wish for more.
i dunt want to turn things back, bec it's so silly when you let something go, then telling me you missed it?
nor wishing for more, bec it'll never get perfect, so no point pursuing.
maybe you didnt know, but you really mean everything.
not tt i dunt wanna love, i'm afraid to, i hate the word "try"
breaks the million hearts, tts why.
no one will ever find out the story behind this, some may, but not all, i'm not prepared.
it just hurts so much, ripped my heart into two.
i dunt wanna believe in no more fairytales, all lies, just some dream, so sweet for you to remember even if it passes for a million times.
i wunt cry, not bec i'm strong, bec i dunt need it.
tears to shed, blood to bleed, smiles to fake, laughters to hide, is this what i've gotta do when everyday arrive?
sometimes, i wished, lies are for real.
wouldnt tt be nice?
tell me, how can you take this?
if only i was never brought to this place.
could i've been better off then? ):


TO TWINNIE:
i'm so sorry for saying those words.
it was meant to be a joke, a joke tt only i'd play with it, but i understand tt it was a lil too harsh on you though, i felt guilty, seriously. =x
idk what to say to apologise, so i just wait there silently, but i was glad tt you saw my smile, bec it was meant to say, i want us to talk once more.
dunt feel the phobia no more, bec i'm too preoccupied in my mind.
i dunt want another trouble to occur.
but this will not happen once more, this i promise you.
i'm sorry. =x

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