hellos!
hehe, thought the com was spoilt, & i can CONFIRM it was okayy.
haha.
but cynthia came & the com was miraclely, perfectly FINE!
woah, superwoman. LOLOL. ;D
idk why, and how. hehe. but it's a very good thing though.
LOLOL.
ermm, alot of things happened recently lah huh.
alot, alot, alot, alot.. tts all tt can be said.

GALFRIENDS
okayy, i know how fortunate should i feel to have you guys by my side.
i really do, but, just somethings, somehow, idk how to face with my real, true emotions.
i wanna share, i promised, i tried really hard, but it's just not how easy as you said tt could be.
i dunt wanna worry you guys.
is preferred to be silent, is better, trust me.
but if one day, tt i'm destined to leave, i'd have to, though i dunt want to.
like how you said, if i'm happy, i hoped you'd be too.


even if i could laugh the day off, smile like i always do, but deep down, we both knew tt it's not the real one no more, so whats the point, you tell me?
i dunt wanna just THROW the smile, & STICK it onto my face, it's so superficial, dunt you feel so?
& it's stupid, right?
dunt ask me why not smile the real one then, i dunt deny, once in awhile, you guys really made me laugh, & smile so vabriant.
& i dunt deny, it's happy being with you guys.

despite those conflicts between one another, we came to understand.
despite the little anger & jealousy, we still care for one another no matter what.
despite those sacarsm, we still cannot hide the truth tt we're still galfriends.


"no one comes in, & no one will go out."
remember this? a strong sentence, it is.
but it's to be understood tt everyone should have their freedom correct?
okayy, i know, once in awhile, you hoped tt we could still stay as a grp, like after school curricular time.
but when the heart & soul is no longer there, there's really no point even if you expect it to happen.
again, whats the point?


i'm speaking from the bottom of my heart now, cause i really want this to stop, & i hope this wouldnt sour our relationship.
understandings is really needed alright, i'm speaking for her sake, you mean after 2 years, like what you guys said, isnt enough for you to see one another's true colours.
if you know she'll be this & tt, no matter how you want her to change, deep down, i bet you know is impossible.
& especially to you, dunt push too hard on someone, they'll get very sick.
this is what i feel during the leaving period.
& i really want a change in you guys mindset, if it's my fault for saying this, i apologised for tt.

"as we go on, we remember, all the times we, had together,
& as our life changed, come whatever, we will still be friends forever."

okayy, shall get back to today then, it's a long post, sorry ppl(:
hehe, got back report book today(:
was kinda good, & bad.
got a present yesterday, today too.
(:
hmm, think we'll be having a galfriend outing on monday(;
wooooo~
okayy, shall strt the countdown today(:
8 more days!!
;D

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