Friday, April 11
alright, just trying to figure out the past, reminscing thiings tt had happened:
the first tiime ii saw you, iin the familiar place of all, the school, with everyone squeezing here and there, then there you stood, looking at my direction, ii wasnt sure iif you were looking at me, but you captured all my attention. (: the feeling was real great, though iit only last for few seconds.
the first tiime ii was so close to you, thiis close, shoulder by shoulder, you didnt look at me, but ii cant take my eyes off you, ii admit. you walked pass me, ii wanted to say somethiing, but ii forgot what ii was suppose to say, tougue tied.
the first tiime you rejected me, ii didnt wanna cry, seriously, ii really didnt mean iit. but tears just kept flowing inevitably. ii'm sorry, ii really didnt mean tt way.
the first tiime you were only a phone's distance away from me, you took my every breath. my heart was no longer beating, because ii'm no longer with myself.
the first tiime, ii heard you saying you loved another gal. ii didnt know what to do, didnt know what to say. ii fake a smile, a laugh. trying hard to bless you, but ii really couldnt, cause ii guessed ii relied too much on you.
the first tiime we talked on the phone. ii was speechless. ii didnt know what you say. didnt know what you were laughing at, but foolishly, ii just laughed along. didnt know what you were saying, but again, just talk along. ii loved tt feeling.
the first tiime we watched an movie. ii didnt know the distance between the movie seat were so far away. though so close, but ii know we were so far apart. ii kept the movie ticket, even until now. telling myself thiis would be a memory ii would never forget, even iif ii were to forget all abt the world.
the first tiime we were together, ii was really overjoyed, so happy tt ii couldnt sleep. ii didnt know how you were feeling, but ii really hope you would feel tt way too. but ii know you wouldnt, because ii understand you couldnt drop off the another one. but ii dunt blame you.
the first tiime ii heard you hated me, ii told myself ii hated you too, but deep iin my heart, ii felt weak. ii didnt know what was going on.
and now, everytiime your name iis mentioned, ii teared iin silent. ii dunt wanna force, but ii dunt know how to let iit go. ii've never expected my love would be reciprocated. but all ii want iis for you to notice me, cause you're impossible to find. such lil thiings like thiis tt you would never bothered to care, iis everythiing tt ii contain iin my heart. ii still believed you're the one for me, even until now.
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